We all live in a yellow submarine...

2007-08-02T23:23:00.000+08:00

If you can help one

You can help two

If you can help none

Who can help you?

I ask you to give of yourself

To kids who deserve to smile one more day

Think outside of yourself

For kids who wish for a chance to play

With your generosity, we can dare help make it better for these kids.

One hundred pesos from your pocket, once a week, once a month, or whenever you remember that there’s a child out there who needs your help…that’s all it takes.

A big event on the one-hundredth day of the campaign will see performances by big local artists coming together to ask you to give…

Venues and events where you can donate shall be announced soon.

Help 100 donation bottles/boxes shall be available for your donations really soon.

For more updates on Help 100, listen to Magic 89.9 and log on to www.magic899.fm and this multiply site.

For information about childhood cancer in the Philippines and Project Brave Kids log on to www.projectbravekids.org.

For your donations a G-cash account will be activated and shall be announced soon.

For the meantime you can deposit whatever amount you can spare using the Project Brave Kids account BDO CA1208014052.

here are some of the pictures of one of the brave kids: Seve Augusto Sabarre Perez

Incidentally Seve August is also the inspiration behind Project: Brave Kids which appeared in a billboard advertising with movie idol Piolo Pascual.

In the said commercial, Seve and Piolo were playing together, with Piolo teaching Seve how to hunt.

Seve’s face was painted like a warrior, brave enough to hunt or to fight - thus when
Project :Brave Kids developed an icon to represent all the brave kids fighting cancer, this photo of Seve became the basis.

Despite these trials Seve remains cheerful and playful, very active and inquisitive like any boy his age. He has shown tremendous courage in facing cancer, by volunteering his hand for blood test or IV insertion, offering what he thinks is the better part of his body for injection, not removing his facemasks (despite the inconvenience of having one every time he goes out) and many other courageous acts.

it is his courage, and the courage of other children like him who also battle cancer, that inspire Project: Brave Kids.

hear are some of the pictures of our brave kids fighting cancer

Your help is a gift…a blessing.

Thank you and bless your hearts, always, always.

Joogieman/ Joel Gonzaga

hindi nakakatuwang inet

2007-04-15T11:22:00.000+08:00

i was surfin the net...

ebay to be exact..i was lookin for...well shoes hahaha

i was drinkin a tall glass of pepsi na may ice na malaki!

sobrang inet kasi...tapos mjo naaliw ako sa nkita ko sa net so surf surf ulet

tapos nauhaw ako... i reached for my pepsi...

tapos pag sip ko...

BLEEEEEEH!!! LASANG TUBIG!!!

UN MALAKING CUBE NG ICE NATUNAW NA BIGLA!!!

NKAKAIRITA UN LASA ANG PANGET!!!

NABUGA KO UN KONTE HAHAHA NAGULAT AKO EH HAHAHA!!!

BORACAY!!!..... no more

2007-04-10T07:25:00.000+08:00

we were supposed to go to boracay later..pero wala i backed out..

i just dont feel like going na... everythins been planned na.. nun feb pa inayos un sa hotel and all pati un room assignmnets.. wala lang i just dont feel like going na..

i havent told the guys that i wasnt coming so...

KUN NABABASA NYO TO!!! IM NOT GOING..HAHAHA

SORRY SHORT NOTICE!!

lets just put it this way boracays's still gona be boracay RYT?

kaya if ever man.. nde mawawala yan...

maybe dudumi lang xa hahaha...

again sorry!!

bday wish list...or smething like that..

2007-04-10T06:44:00.000+08:00

walang magawa ngaun so...

gumawa nlang ako ng list ng gsto kong gift For my bday which is 16days from now..hahaha!!wut!! 16 days nalang??22 nako?? shit m gettin old!!! anyways ds is not in any order...hahaha..

1. cHucks un Black or WyT.. naawa nako sa chucks ko hahaha

2. Ipod ShuFFLE (wla lang...may ipod ako kso lng naaliw ako dun sa green hahaha pra pwede ko gmiting habang ngbabasketball hahaha)

3. Rubber shoes!! wala lng feeling ko mapuputol un paa kun gnamit ko un old rubbershoes ko eh

4.IPOD WARRANTY!!! nasira ipod ko eh so right now its nothin but a paper weight

5. GMASK..wala tagal kona gs2 pa gmask ipod ko eh..pero first kelngan ko muna xa pagawa!

6.LAPTOP!!! un may web cam hahaha dnt wori it wont be used for sexy purposes..wala lang bakit ba!! this is my blog naman and it says WISH LIST!! dba??

7. VIDEOCAM dream ko mkagawa ng movie..not star in a movie ok? but make my own movie..kaya i need a good vidcam,,, dvdcam better hahaha!!

8. digicam i have 1 naman ero parang luma na hehehe

9. hoody jaket ... i know its summer pero i have a thing for hoody's hhahaha

10 BAG my mom said andme ko ng bag..pero wala lang feeling ko gs2 ko pa ng madame!! hahaha im such a girl

bawal mag post ng comment dito ok? pm msg lang hahaha!!

basta bawal magcomment!!!

ang mag comment hnde invited sa "UNDER THE SEA" bday party ko sa MangDO!!

honest conversation/feeling

2007-04-10T05:27:00.000+08:00

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!

gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!

2006-07-27T10:57:00.000+08:00

i woke up at 8am tday..opened the radio while preparing breakfast for my lola(hehehe i had to include that just for kick hahaha)...enewei i came across this station since nu was playin shitty songs...ok so moving on the station had a promo about the pussy ket dalls ok?so there theyre giving away six tickets..so i said wow! that way too many to give a way just like that..only to find out that this dj dare was to have a listener get a tattoo of the dj's dace n2 her body...

wow! can you imagine that just to watch the pussy ket dalls?? hahaha

i was wonderin kun kaya ko ba gawin un and kanino?,,,thats beside the point,,,

so after that some dude called up..and when i say dude...i meant DUDE!!! he had this hunkadoodle bird voice..he was like stallone and schwarseniggro's voice..and he like goin..
"aiz tzallangez zyou vor ze tzikatzz" he said hel get the tattoo of all the 3dj's n his butt..geez not to mention 2 of the dj's wer guys..wow...

weird ass!! for all we know they cud come back 2yrs from now..besyds lets say 5 yrs from now that guy's gonna have his own kids or wife..what da hell is he suppose to say?

umm
" hi kidzz aiz gut thiz tzatoo fer wutzchin ze puzzy ketz dollz"
GIVE ME A BREAK RIGHT!!!!

hahaha...wala lang,,,

2006-07-17T12:21:00.000+08:00

BLAST FROM THE PAST!! hahaha i made this 2years ago...

Ever had the feeling that ur being deprieved?
its lke u wanna go somewhere but something or
someone is holding you back? i have...3mins ago

what sucks is usually you get split into 2...
one side is begging for answers..on the other
ur so fucking pissed coz ur afraid of the
freaking truth behind it...

what if u never get to the bottom of it? wud u feel bad?
what if the truth isnt wut u wanted or worse its not what you expected?
aaaw now thats a whole lotta shit that u gotta get thru...ryt?

first minute..."haha its nothing (body gets numb)
first hour... "oh shit what did just happened?" (tears start to fall)
first week... "i'm gonna be ok...everythings fine"
(u start give this stupid plastic smile)
first month... "its not ok" shit i miss her...

2months after..."aaah i miss her!!!"
next 3months... "i'm doing good i think"

suddenly someone came...

now...whats ur next move?? ur too damn chickenshit to do something right?
yeah thats what i thought..ur a BIG CHICKEN SHIT!!and now ur too afraid to be happy fr yourslef...

aaaw now isnt that sweet...
as i it goes...

whats the point of being in love?
if i had to be in love all alone?
whats the point?
there's a point...thats why we call it unconditional love right...

2006-07-14T12:16:00.001+08:00

WHY DAWSON CREEK kick OTH's ASS

joey potter and charlie...i bet u didnt know about this right?i tink this brought ol chaddy to stardom hehehe..

watch joshua jackson/pacey witter shake his ass in this on..he's wearin the red shirt..hahaha CLASSIC!!!

this was the last scene...huwaaaah...this was when katie homes was still that innocent lookin nice girl without a baby...where michelle williams hasnt engaged to to a lame bed scnen with a gay dude in broke back...kerr sith had to play a gay rol to get credit and finnally starring in final destination..james vander beek was still every girls dream promdate...and the times where every guy wanted to be joshua jackson...pacey witter.huhuhuh *sniffle*

2006-07-05T20:46:00.000+08:00

THE THINGs THAT SUCKED ABOUT SUPERMAN

LEX WAS A FRIGGIN FAG! superman carried a shitload of kryptonite that has the size of australia, and worst of all KHA-LEL'S SON HAS ASTHMA????!!!! WUT THE F*CK?? ARE YOU KIDDIN ME? son of the man of steel?? hes like the kid of steel or something...WHY DA HELL WUD HE SUFFER FROM FORM DISEASE OF THE WEAK??? DUH!!! I mean how da hell does he intend to save the world in the future? if someone wants to rule the world all he has to do is BRING A FRIGIN KAT And guess what?superkid will probably die of an asthma attack..sheeez

2006-07-03T19:30:00.000+08:00

SOOOPAH MAN!!!

superman rocks!! astig movie! it had the classic intro and shits...kaya lang got weirded out by the thing he did wit the meteor rocks..sa smallville kasi lumapit lang parang inuugat na xa..sa movie exagge he lifted the kryptonite that has the size of australia!! to hell with that!...all in all... Christpher reeve is still my sooopa freak! way to go old man /R/I/P

2006-06-20T15:53:00.001+08:00

What's Happening to me????

I need my cheese!! i need my cheesecake!!! i need foood!!! fooooooooooooooooooood!!! hahaha... anyone out there??? i need food???!!!

if anynes listenin if you happen to read this...i'm desperately n need of the alchemist book..i need some guidance hahaha joke... the person hu'l lend or give me(better) would recieve a copy of my book which m hoping to finish by october

BOOK UPDATE:i need help!!!

my book is somewhat 20% done still a lot of work to do...i wud be needin some pictures... i wud be posting the theme of the pics by wed..if anyones readin this if u have pictures of urself na may gnun theme just send them..i'll include them n my book...dont wori ul be acknowledge..nd ul get a free copy hahaha feeling ko no as if gsto nyo...neways i'll only be producin 10-15 copies,,, they wont be sold and will be given to those worthy of my masterpiece...

FYI:
writing my own book is one of my list of "things to do before i die" hahaha
so pls pray for the success of my book..ciao!! mwah!!for the girls! kick to balls to the guys hahahaha bye!!

Project Mayhem

2006-06-20T15:53:00.000+08:00

PROJECT MAYHEM!!!

i wont be writing that often on my blog...aaaw

the good news is im gonna fullfill one of my dreams!! to write a book!! hehehe i dont care if its good or bad...u dont even have to worry about it coz u wont see it anyways hahaha...i mean il only make hmmm maybe 20 copies hehehe...but i wont seel them of cors coz no one will buy them pero astig kasi..lam mo un?? its a book!! my own book hahaha...hopefully i'll finish it by later this year!! wish me luck guys!..

ODE TO MAKY

2006-06-06T19:07:00.000+08:00

ODE TO MAKY!!!

Hang in there brah..help is on the way...

we're here we got your back

HINDE AKO SI MAKOY!!!!

2006-06-06T18:31:00.000+08:00

HINDE AKO SI ORANGE AND LEMONS MAN!!! HINDE AKO YON!!! T*NGINA...

THOUGHT FOR THE DAY

2006-06-03T15:33:00.000+08:00

my thought for the day is...NEVER HIT ON UR BAND MATE!!!...

YEAAAAAH

2006-06-03T15:26:00.000+08:00

i updated my frenster account...astig..i feel like im back in my highschool days where dawson and pacey and joey ruled every guys tv..hahaha...at least my tv hehehe...although i go for a pacey and joey "thing" o nadin cgro un ending...pag ngkapera ako bilen ko un 6 seasons nun...papakita ko sa anak ko tapos...SON! THIS WAS UR DADS LIFE HAHAHA

huh???

2006-05-30T14:14:00.000+08:00

HOW DO YOU PLANT SEEDLESS GRAAAAAPES!!!!!

X men!!

2006-05-30T13:53:00.000+08:00

hello...

watched x men yesterday!! asteeeg c hugh jackman..hairy man got even better form d xmen 2... kulet nga eh cz if u watch kate and leopold sobrang ibang ibang un acting nya hahaha...parang dun sa kate and leo..all he says is "i beg ur pardon nd stuffs..pero sa xmen parang hey furball hahaha!!...

cyclops ayun gay padin xa alongside with ice man...parang "WIPE THAT GRIN OFF UR FACE!" NKAKAASAR TLGA UN SMILE NYA BADING!!! hehehe..rouge played a minor role n d movie...and SHIT!!! ARCHANGEL!!! grabe!! d only action scene was wen he got out of the bulding where "the cure" was...after dat wala...he didnt even punch anyone..sayang astig pa naman sana xa...

wala ako masabe..parang andameng namatay asteeg!!...

+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+Fin+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+*+

2006-05-29T18:30:00.000+08:00

12 hours of no sleep
dreaming anew
i see a star falling for me
everything is right
everything is beautiful
but me...

the sun is silent
the rain so calm
my heart is shattering
now that youre gone

and i could cry
in another cold lonely summer
and i could die for another between the river

it has started
my everything
my eternity right before me
and everything is beautiful
but me...

WAAAAAAAH KUYAAAAAAAAAA!!!! Stop it!!!

2006-05-26T14:25:00.000+08:00

waaaah big brother fever is gettin into me..gotta stop watching that show!! this is the 2nd tym that this had happen.. hahahaha

Enweis i had another dream that i was n the PBB house i was with kim and gerald wc was really weird coz i didnt like kim...(wait lang..baka si gerald hahahaha joke!)..going back we were palyin basket ball kim and i had a bet..umm..a lil smething like...

joeL_man: laro tayo kim...
kim: ayaw ko nga
joeL_man: dali na pag na shoot ko to hnde ka maeevict sa sat ok?
kim: sige na nga ako din
joeL_man: *shoots d ball* and misses...sorry!isa pa
kim: ako na nga *shoots the ball* misses likewise..kita mo na tatangal nako hahaha...
joeL_man: ganto nalang pg nag miss ako nde ka maoout *shoots the ball* as expected..it missed hahaha

neweis..wsnt that scary hahaha...the first dream was with the mommy..but thats fine with me coz shes my crush hahahabut this time..WEIRD ASS PARE!!!

^V^V^V^V^V^V^V^V^V^V^V^V^V^V^V^V^V^V^V^V^V^V^^V^V^V^V^V^V^V^V^V^V^V^V^V

another scary thing was when i woke up...and realized...oo nga no cute pala si kim hahahaha!!!...

FIN

help me im joel and im lost..

2006-05-17T20:01:00.000+08:00

il be damned! it has been a year since my last post...waaaah... neways m startin to get into this blog thing again..just to release the FURY!!!! naaah just kiddin,,hehehe

random stuffs..

2005-05-25T09:04:00.000+08:00

Section 1: YOU YOU YOU! *

+ Known as: JogZ
+ Lives in: Jan lang
+ Birthday: ApRil
+ School: Meron nman
+ Religion: catholic
+ Shoe size: 10 1/2
+ Hair color: black
+ Eye color: black
+ hair Style:

* Section 2 - Have you ever... *
+ Cheated on someone? Dont think so..
+ Been Cheated on? i dunno...
+ Fallen off the bed?: pag may epal na biglang tumabi
+ Broken someones heart?: ???
+ Had your heart broken?: yes yes yes
+ Had a dream come true?: not yet. dont worry. ill get there..
+ Done something you regret? eating too much pancit..naimpacho ako gaaaah!!!
+ Cheated on a test? yeah for sure. who hasnt? right?

* Section 3 - Currently *
+ Wearing? uniform
+ Listening to? : in my mind im brandon boyd..listenin to summer romance! yeah!! kickass!!
+ Located?: room
+ Chatting with? just me and you
+ Watching? the friggin monitor
+ Should REALLY be doing? : Studying..coz im a STU-D-E-N-T

* Section 4 - Do you... *+ Brush your teeth?: of course..on a normal day..
+ Have any piercings?: yup 2 on my left ear
+ Drive?: not right now
+ Drink?: yerp...*hic*
+ Smoke?:Never!!!

* Section 5 - The last person you... *
+ Hugged?: monster
+ Kissed?: monster
+ Talked on the phone: Someone..
+ Yelled at?: i wont tell...

* Section 6 - Personal *
+ What do you want to be when you finishcollege?:do something..write a book
+ What has been the best day of your life?: ilove you. i dont have an answer.
+ What comes first in your life?: i dunno..havent thought of that..hmm o nga no?
+ Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush?: crush lang..ika nga ni spike
+ What do you usually think about before you goto bed?: "Di magtatagal TAYO AY LILIGAYA!!!" yeah
+ Did you lose someone you really loved?: nofee....i never loved u anyway
+ How many times have you fallen in love?: i dontknow..
+ Love your family?: yes
+ Love your friends?: barkada yes very much!!mwah!! kiss kiss

* Section 7 - Favorite *+ Movie: great expectations
+ Song: miss you - silverchair
+ Store: basta kung saan may sapatos
+ Relative: Jap?
+ Sport: basketball, soccer gusto ko mag wallclimbing ulit!! parang ang gfaling ko dati eh..
+ Ice Cream Flavor:anything free
+ Fruit: dami eh
+ Candy: anythin free
+ Day of the Week: friday
+ Time: 8:50am
+ Color: green white blue pink hahaha weird guy

* Section 8 - Do you *+ Like to give hugs? yup!!! as in!! i hug all of my friends..
+ Like to give kisses? SOOOBRA..i kiss everyone in sight! waste the M@THERF@CKERS!!!hahaha
+ Like to walk in the rain? yup!! reeno rico are you reading this???!!its the rain effect thing again!!
+ Prefer black or blue pens?: black
+ Like to travel?: yerp.. BY FOOT!! hehehe
+ Sleep on your side, stomach or back? :always onmy side..
+ Have a goldfish?: nope..
+ Ever have the falling dream?: yes. scary..i woke up feeling sticky..eeew
+ Have stuffed animals?: for some reason i gave it back...awww.. i miss my bestbud..if this msg gets to you take care of simba ok? tear..haaay i miss you really

* Section 9 - What do you think about...
*+ Smoking: it would kill you someday...
+ Eating disorders: people will do anything for beauty+
Summer: beach!..darnit oh yeah summer class
+ Tattoos: i want to have some!!
+ Piercings: its nice when you get them at theright places..
* Section 10 - This or that
*+ Pierced nose or tongue? tongue
+ Single or taken?: taken
+ Sugar or salt?: sugar
+ Silver or gold?: silver
+ Chocolate or flowers?: flowers
+ Color or Black-and-white photos? black and white.. dont ask
+ M&Ms or Skittles? m&ms
+ Stay up late or sleep in?: sleep all day..pigs life could be soooo fun..
+ Hot or cold?: cold+ Mustard or ketchup?: ketchup
+ Spring or Fall?: fall+ Happy or sad? : happy..i am happy
+ Wonder or amazement? wonder. of course

Stop or my mom will shoot!

2005-05-23T11:03:00.000+08:00

shhh..keep quiet she sitting next to me...she laughin about somethin..weird kid..neways im hungry..
i have nothin to say..gaaah is this life? waking up everyday realizing how hungry u are..m not making sense ryt? thats ok its my site its my blog..hehehehe/...bye bye..im gona eat now i think..

Ako si Guy..ikaw si Pip

2005-04-13T17:01:00.000+08:00

panibagong simula..ito ang magsislbing bagong panahon..ang pakiramdam ko akoy ipinanganak muli, para bang isa akong halaman na bagong buka, isang paru parong kaka labas lamang sa katotohanan ng buhay, hay ganito ba talaga? napaka saya ng buhay ngaun pakiramdam ko akoy nanalo sa sweepstakes..ndi ko mapaliwanag anong saya ba ito? ito si siguro naramdaman ni cesar montano pag nanalo sya sa famas..

masarap maging masaya ng ndi namamalayan kun bakit, ngunit mas nakakatuwang isipin na masaya tayo na alam natin kun sino ang sanhi ng ating kasiyahan..siguro nga iba na talga ang ikot ng mundo..tignan mo kung sino ang masaya ngaun at kung sino ang naka tanga sa ating harapan..

bagamat nakalipas na ang ilang buwan, ngaun sa aking pagsing ay pakiramdam koy ay ito lamang ang unang araw kun kailan ko inaming akoy umibig(yuck ang mushy). ang saya..sobrang saya siguro nga ito ang naramdaman ni ate guy at ni pip noong mga araw na sila'y tinatambal sa pinilakang tabing.

ang taong malungkot ay walang karapatan sisihin ang kanyang kapwa na sanhi ng kanyang pagdadalamhati..sya ay malungkot dahil ito ang pinili nyang gawin

LIHAM SA HALIMAW...

2005-04-07T16:29:00.000+08:00

AKing HALIMAW

ang nakalipas na mga araw ay wala sa ayos...namimiss ko ang halimaw sa aking pagtulog, pinipilit libangin ang aking sarili pagkat akoy nasanay sa halimaw ng aking buhay..ilang buwan akong nabuhay na sa kanya kumukuha ng lakas sa araw araw..siguro nga nasanay na ako at namanhid sa mga nangyayari, ang buhay ay minsang parang "Lollipop" itoy masarap ngunit unti unti kang tutunawin sa huli.

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ang gawa na mali ang kinahinatnatan ay hindi dapat pagsisihan datapwat itoy dapat pulutan ng aral sa ganun ay hindi na ito tularan. "to ba ang sinasabe nilang gulong ng palad" ang aking mga sinabe ay hindi na maaring bawiin sapagkat itoy nagawa na, ang maari ko na lang gawin ay umasa na "ang mali ngaun ay maaring tama bukas" sabi nila ang pagbibitiw ng mga salita tama man o mali ay mga naangkop na panahon ng pagsasalita.

pilitin ko man magsisi ng tuluyan ay mayrong pumipigil sa akin at nagsasabi na sa isang banda ay tama ang aking nagawa..."sana ay mali na lamang ako", mahirap ang buhay na nagiisa, hindi nga bat kaya tayo nghahanap ng ating kabiyak ay para tayo magmahal at mahalin.. ngunit paano kung sa huli ang taong pinili nating mahalin ang unti unting umubos sa atin? makatarungan bang piliin nating unti untingmamatay sa kamay nila kesa sa kamay ng iba?

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ang mga bagay bagay na nangyayari sa atin ay may kapalit, maging masaya man o masakit ito, dapat natin itong tanggapin, ang mga mahal natin sa buhay, kadalasan sila ang nakakasakit sa atin..akoy naniniwala na "hindi ka kayang saktan ng taong hindi mo mahal". maging pangkaibigan na pagmamahal man ito o pagmamahal na higit pa. kaya nga sigur sadyang mas masakit talaga kung sila ang magiging sanhi at ating mga pasakit.

dumadating sa ating buhay na minsan ay parang gusto na nating sumuko, bagamat gusto natin ang ating ginagawa dumadating ang puntong kailangan na natin munang mag pahinga. ang aking napiling pagpapahinga ay sa pisikal na aspeto lamang, ito ay sa pamamaraang ibabaling ko muna ang aking pisikal na katawan o ang aking gawain na malayo sa halimaw. ngunit hindi ito ibig sabihin na ang pagmamamahal ay maglalaho na. ang pagmamahal ko ay gusto kong ituring sa "baga ng apoy". ikulong mo at itoy hindi makakahinga at unti unti mapupukaw. ngunit "bigyan mo ng sapat espasyo at hangin at di magtatagal ito ay uusbong upang magbigay ng mainit na pagtanggap at pagmamahal..."

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akoy humihingi ng pagunawa alang alang sa atin mahal kong halimaw, lahat ay gagawin ko para lamang sa iyo. ngaun ako naman ang humihingi ng katiting at sanay maintindihan. akoy babalik sa natakdang panahon upang ipagpatuloy ang aking nasimulan. ngunit kung sa aking pagbalik ay naglaho na ang lahat tatamgapin ko ang iyong desisyon. kung ang iyong palagay ay tama na at wala ng dapat pang ipagpatuloy..iyon ay pipilitin kong tanggapin at "mamahalin na lamang kita sa aking wagas at tahimik na pamamaraan..."

WAKAS

nagmamahal

-Spongha

friend test

2005-04-05T19:50:00.000+08:00

2005-04-05T17:21:00.000+08:00

I. o .u .

I walked into the dark hall
With my own cross
Just smiling at every blood stains
I find dripping from my legs

I can already see it, my own grave
Still I’ll finish my walk
For it may be my last journey

I can fail in all my subjects
Or be jobless 7yrs from now
I could even die next month
I know I can’t reach you
But never shall I fail
Of being happy in my life knowing you
I just can’t…

I may be lost for all of my life
And never see that light that
He has prepared for me
I am thirsty, I need a drink
I’ll be waiting for it to happen
Maybe not this time
Maybe not ever.

I’ll just do what I do best
Wait, wait and wait
It may never come
I may be baffled for 11months
But I found myself in you
With every breath that I take is for you
For every word that comes out of me is all about you...

-spongy

look whos bored..

2005-04-03T14:23:00.000+08:00

Check your LOVE attitude....
To find your love attitude number, add your birth month and your birthdate together. Keep reducing it until it's a single digit.
Example: January 28 1+28 = 29 2+9 = 11 1+1 = 2; Your love attitude number is 2.
If your number is:
Two
Your love nature is sentimental, romantic and kind. Your easygoing, mild manner allows almost everyone to feel very comfortable with you - especially shy guys/gals. Your modesty and tact enable you to get along easily with both sexes. You are a natural peacemaker and can be very persuasive with words, which helps you to gain the respect of your classmates. You can also be too sensitive at times, and your greatest drawback is a lack of confidence to stand up for yourself in conflict. Your favorite type of guy is a gentle, affectionate one who is also strong and playful. A great sense of humor is also a must. A guy/gal who loves to listen to music and dance should rank high on your list of favorites, too.
Three
You are imaginative, fun-loving, thrill-seeking and expressive. You're so charming that you attract many friends and you are almost never lacking guys/gals. In your earlier years, you may be totally shy and self-conscious, but you'll lose those qualities in the high-school years. You can be sort of vain or even a bit of a show-off when you get caught up in exciting events in your life, but you usually redeem yourself in some playful way before you lose a friend. Jealousy shows its ugly head sometimes, but generally you aren't affected by it unless your guy/gal tries to provoke it. In the guy/gal department, you prefer the athletic or artistic types. You're in absolute heaven when you find both of those qualities in the same guy/gal. When you're looking for love, a guy/gal who can make you laugh scores points, big time!
Four
You tend to be loyal, dedicated and good hearted. You're one of the most diligent students when you really try, and you tend to make your schoolwork a priority. You also express those same qualities in your love relationship. No one is more faithful and trusting than you. In fact, those tendencies can be a little negative in your romantic life. You may sometimes hang on too long to a guy/gal who doesn't give you the respect and love you deserve. You can be stubborn and a bit of a troublemaker if the mood strikes you but you can usually dig yourself out of that hole just in time to stay out of major trouble. You usually fall for extremes when choosing a love mate - he/she may be a show-off or a teacher's pet. Whatever the type, it helps if he/she is good-looking, too, but that's not a major consideration for you.
Five
Your love attitude is adventurous, charismatic and spontaneous. You're creative and adaptable, and you can come up with the most exciting and sometimes daring things to do. Your quick intelligence and way with words help get you out of the problems that come with being flirtatious and playing hard to get. You need to pay close attention to your personal values because you love to try new and different things and easily go along with the crowd and the consequences can put extra strain on your relationship with a boy/girl. You like guys/gals who have great bodies and good looks, along with exceptional brain and high grades. It helps if they are highly athletic or involved in as many activities as you, otherwise you might get bored! Variety is the key to your love attitude number.
Six
You are warm, loving, devoted and affectionate. Your outgoing, thoughtful nature attracts many girlfriends/boyfriends to you, and usually some of the nicest guys/gals too. Because of your need to care, you can end up in a relationship that requires too much care-taking to make it balanced. Since home and family play important roles in your life, you are unlikely to be attracted to guys/gals who your parents wouldn't like. Sometimes you have a slight jealous streak... but it doesn't last long. Some people with this love attitude number are prone to making harsh judgments of others, especially when others don't share your set of values. You are especially attracted to the good looking, boy/girl-next-door type who is smart as well as a gentle man/woman.
Seven
Your love nature is thoughtful, poetic, mystical and mysterious. A few people with love attitude number seven are class clowns, and they usually attract guys/gals who like to be given a hard time. But most of you are the quiet, reserved types who dislike calling attention to yourself. Your type generally attracts guys who feel the same way you do. Your refined, independent and secretive nature is very alluring to certain guys/gals. At times you can also be somewhat fault-finding and a little demanding in your love relationship and with friends. You are mostly attracted to guys/gals who aren't like all the rest; a loner easily attracts you. And, if he/she reads a lot and enjoys learning, he/she is especially perfect for you.
Eight
Your love attitude is confident, powerful and exciting. This number usually makes for a very conscientious student, someone who puts schoolwork ahead of a social life. However, you also enjoy being a leader among your classmates and will seek offices or other positions that enable you to use your leadership skills. Because of this, you can be somewhat intimidating to certain guys/gals. You can also be a little too intense, bossy and jealous for your own good. Your love match is definitely someone who is smart, handsome and popular. You like quality over quantity and will usually wait until the guy/gal with the best attributes comes along.
Nine
You have a sophisticated attitude that is also generous and considerate. Your responsible, charitable nature may find you attracting guys/gals who want someone to confide in or who makes them feel secure. At a very young age, you developed the type of personality that makes others feel safe and protected. You will carry these qualities into your adult years and, down the road, you'll be a good mom/dad because of them. On the negative side, you can be argumentative and overly emotional, and you usually possess a temper that can make everyone run for cover. You like the kind of guy/gal who is responsible and impeccably dressed and has gorgeous eyes and a great body. Charm, wit and (of course) brilliance could make him the

me..

2005-04-03T14:08:00.000+08:00

How to make a joel

Ingredients:

3 parts intelligence

5 parts self-sufficiency

5 parts empathy

Method:
Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of lovability

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

wutta fren!

2005-04-02T22:01:00.000+08:00

there...so unfortunately two of the other guys who were suppose to come had somethin to attend to so we had to spent the night alone..weird..neither of us wanted to go home coz we just got there so i go what the heck "hey nood nlang tau movie".,.yey movie na to! hahaha this is the first time im gona watch a movie with someone else for like 365 days so this was gona be fun!! we watched R-o-b-o-ts...i was tellin her "yan!!ang bagal kasi mag pili ng movie ngstart na lahat!" unless she wants to watch the bruce willis movie eccck!! of cors i pretended not to enjoy the movie just to feel macho hahaha but deep inside me lies a disney boy who loves kiddy stuffs hahaha...

it was weird...i mean the movie ok? but it was fun! funny i mean..yeah i enjoyed the night with my new best bud! she invited me to go eat dinner at her place but i was toooo shy.."oo MERON AKONG HIYA!! YABANG MO!!" hehehe sooooo even if i was starvin to death i had to pass her lovely offer kahit na she's really the bomb when it comes to cookin.. on the way to their house was the fun part i told her stories about me and the monster and the problems we have..she just goes "ALAM MO?...wala.." weird no? but i get her...she justs wana say "HANG IN THERE DUDE!! BUKAS LULUHOD ANG MGA TALA"

haaay she's one of the coolest things this week,,,it's good to have someone you love and swear to wana live the rest of ur life with...(even though ur not really sure..but still ur hopeful that yeah things would be forever but sometimes it just cant be no matter how you wish that thing would be the same but in the end your not sure) ano??!! palag ka?? ang gulo no? paulit ulit lang hehehe

BUT its better din to have a friend that u know will always be there and she will always be the safest thing that could ever happen to you..y? i dunno coz as far as im concern "PARE UR THE BEST UR DA BOMB N UR MALUFET!! UR MY BESTFRIEND!!" to protect her identity i wont mention her name...hehehehe...sa site ko pare lahat tayo pantay pantay..ako lang ang angat!! ehehe joke
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finish FISH

welcome back...i missed you!! what a week!

2005-03-28T16:24:00.000+08:00

monday...we had a make up classes which totally ticked me off...grrr!! neways i coudnt let that into my head since im startin the holy week with a bang!!!

for the first time in weeks i was able to talk to one of my close buddy(i wont name her ait?"

neways i miss this dude...i really really missed her!! she was like one of those best fren materials...the one thing i really liked about her was that shes so..soo her! she so unique and she looks like she doesnt care at all and hard like a rock but shes softer than she looks..shes like...um..u know the bensons eclair candy?the one that has choco filling inside...yeah shes like that hahahaha!!

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neways tuesday mornin the monster came to my house we played generals warcraft n network games n stuff...we played generals first..i looked like a kid back then..i was like "hey what does this do?".."oh shit whats happening"..i tried to use my skills but everytime i attack her base she just kept on using her stupid super weapon canons...grrr i hate that game..hehehe i got my ass kicked..but that was the hottest butt kickin any guy could ever had hahaha...

we got out to get somthin to eat..we ended up in cafe dapits..un4tn8ly it was close so we ate at this chinese fastfood...we ate like bears i ate the so called super sized bowl meal it was so big...she ate the warrior meal with siomai n the weird siopao with nothin in it..i go "what the hell do u get in eating a siopao with nothin in it?" neways she loved it naman eh...hahahaha..she had to go home early coz her best fren was goin to her place..

i got home at about 1pm..then she called up n told me that her date was off..aaaw..to bad...for her hahahaha!! sayang nga lang kasi we couldve gone out or somethin right?but we didnt.. =c

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then i had an idea! *DING* ...since she was supposed to have a date with her bestfren..y cant i go out myself..the first person that popped into my head was my so called long lost fren..i called her up..at first i was kinda hessitant since we just came from a weird thing..neways i invited her to go to the mall to look for somethin...

gaaah im tired to be continued...

hang on dude...help is on the way...

2005-03-09T19:01:00.000+08:00

i have a friend hus havin trouble...seriously its not really a big thing its just that she has a bf but she being lured to the dark side by this innocent looking guy hu also has a bf...sounds easy?...

NOT!!!

to make things worse this guy also has a gf hus a close fren of the girl and the bf of the girl is also the fren of the guy... do u follow me? hahahaha...kulet no?

to make things more complicated the the girl and the guy are classmates ok?

things got a lil bit crazy when the girl suddenly lost her mind and began to have doubts about his guy..not that d guy is cheating and stuff..but she just felt this fuzzy feeling about this guy...

oohh shit..hahahaha... infatuation???..

weird right..the thing is i know both parties i dont want any of them getting hurt..but i want the girl to be happy...even if its such a bullshit act..hahaha...no matter what happens someone is surely gna get hurt hahaha...bahala kau jan!!

what would you do?

2005-02-23T14:41:00.000+08:00

i was asked to stay the fuck away from her dude..that aint cool coz its not fair and sakit sa ulo tlaga... u know y??

1. i dont have a say in it coz i cant let her be caught between me n her folks..
2. i know in the end no matter how giddygood i am..im still no good for each and every single person in her place..(GAAAAH)
3. i dont wana reach the point where her guys s gonaask her to choose..coz that so fucking un fair coz in the end i know she cant and wont choose me..

darnit this suck!!...
y dont i have a say in this!!??

d worst feeling n the world is when somethin big is happening in ur life and u cant do anything about it...

oh..im still here.. what da heck...im happy...almost..happy..

MEMORIES!

2005-02-18T19:47:00.000+08:00

If you read this journal,
even if I don't speak to you often,
post a memory of me.
It can be anything you want.
It can be good or bad,
just as long as it happened.

Then post this to your journal( if you have one.).
See what people remember about you.

something worth reading wink

2005-02-18T19:45:00.000+08:00

i dreamt about dreaming that i went back to our old hse...in my dream i woke up that was just dreaming.then i woke up again that the dream was just a dream...shit...im startin to lose it

the good thing was i think i had the feel how neo felt in the matrix... *wink* *BOINK* we gotta watch constantine!!!!

dreams agen...couldnt think of anything to write...
neways another addition to my weird dreams this past few days...
im not really sure but i think i already have an idea how it feels like to die...

in my dream i was dead ok?(DUH)so here we go i was dead right? afterwards i saw *BOINK* and she was cryin..actually alot of peeps were cryin.. i wanted to call boink but she coudnt here me gaaaah..super badtrip i was shouting at her i wanted to tell her something..(i forgot wut it was) so there i was shouting waaah!! but yeah she couldnt here me... i was like this is so stupid y do dead guys in the movie can blow winds or break glass windows...shit... i was like noooo this is some bullshit crap!!!
then i cried,,cried like a frekin girl till my eyes dried up i knew wut i wanted.. i coudnt talk to boink i couldnt touch her all i coud think of is the worst thing that a person cud do to himself..guess wut came in2 my mind?? HELL YEAH I WANTED TO DIE!! ooops but wait a sec.. DUDE!!! DUH UR ALREADY DEAD!!!
in this world they say that the worst thing that cud happen to you physically is die...but whats next to death?..i dont know all i know is that it scared the shit out of me..and all i can think of is tell boink how much i love her..haaay yuck..it turned to a mushy story na corny...neways

GUYS MORAL LESSON OF THE STORY!! we dont know what tom may bring(only GOd knows dat)
My suggestion tell everyone you care for how much u love them...as in kung kaya everyday dapat!!! you dont know tom aka wala na sila....huhuhuhuhu
ciao!!!
happy reading!!

GAaah... im back...just for the sake of writing

2005-02-18T19:41:00.000+08:00

dont wana waste this blog so im juz gonna put things i got from friendster...im a fuckin loser!..dabg..give me a fuckin life!

33 things (im bored)
Message: 1. YOUR HOROSCOPE?
--- marga the bull

2. SiNGLE OR TAKEN?
--- single BUT NOT AVAILABLE

3. iF TAKEN, BY WHO?
--- Di nga taken eh! nyeta!! pero NOT AVAILABLE

4. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN SERiOUSLY HURT BY THE
PERSON YOU LOVE/LOVED?
--- yup yup...wag na pagusapan...

5. WHAT WOULD BE YOUR REASON iF YOU TURNED
SUiCiDAL?
--- if ever...Naaah...

6. iS SUiCiDE REALLY KiLLiNG YOURSELF?
--- OMG! LABO?!?

7. PREFER COUNTRY OR CLASSiC?
--- nuthin..

8. PREFER CUTE/iDiOT OR SMART/UGLY?
--- the beauty is in the inside not on the outer
appearance *shallow hal*... neways i prefer smart cute chubby sweet...caring...dami...marga nlang para wala away

9. ARE YOU iN A STABLE RELATiONSHiP WiTH YOUR
BF/GF?
--- ISA PA TATAMAAN KA NA!! KULIT!!!

10. YOU`D EXPECT A TEXT MESSAGE USUALLY FROM:
---recently? d DARTH VADER aka (THE DARK SIDE) kakakakakaka....kaw kasi dimo ko tinetext eh huhuhu

11. HAVE A BEST FRiEND THAT iS iN THE OPPOSiTE
GENDER? WHO?
--- maybe?...i consider her as my bestfriend...i dont know da hell i am to her...BNS(bhala na si SPONGEBOB)

12. WHAT DO YOU LiKE DOiNG WHEN YOU`RE DEPRESSED?
--- listen to music or lyin' on my bed...give my pillow a nice F**kin Squuezee GRRRRR BADTRIP!!!

13. CHEERFUL OR BORiNG?
--- Cheerful..i hope not boring...am i?

14. DESCRiBE A PERFECT DATE.
--- there's no such thing as a perfect date,
bcoz sh!t happens!! GOT IT?!! GOOD!! OTAI?

15. EVER WONDERED WHY NOBODY KNOWS WHY THE SKY
iS BLUE? WHAT DO YOU THiNK?
--- WTF! masakit sa ulo ang sobrang pag iisip

16. EVER BEEN HURT BY LOVE?
--- haaaay...

17. WiLL YOU EVER MAKE THE SAME MiSTAKE AGAiN?
WITH LOVE???
--- maybe....depends on her...

18. EVER HATED ANYONE LiKE HELL?
--- Nope...let ur anger set with the sun...T*ngna para ginagawa ko un ah...di rin!!

19. DO YOU DO ANYTHiNG WHEN A PERSON BREAKS UP
WiTH YOU AFTER ONE DAY?
-- aaay..ewan ko ganun ba yun ginawa mo sakin last june?

20. GiVE ONE WORD THAT BEST DESCRiBES WHAT
YOU`RE FEELiNG NOW.
--- PISSED!!! i should be studyin for RLE n im stuck here RUNTING ABOUT MY DAY!!! GRRRR!!! KAKAASAR!!

21. DO YOU BELiEVE iN YOURSELF?
--- Yes, i am confident about what i feel!

22. EVER PHYSiCALLY HURT YOURSELF?
--- yup...sobrang katangahan...

23. EVER VERBALLY HURT YOURSELF?
--- yup...

24. MOTTO iN LiFE.
--- its never too early to realize love but at ANY MOMENT IT COULD BE TOO LATE!!!

25. HAVE YOU EVER DOUBTED THAT SOMETiMES?
--- NEVER

26. HAVE YOU EVER HAD *EXTRA* FEELiNGS ABOUT A
BEST FRiEND FROM THE OPPOSiTE GENDER?
--- yup...NOT GOOD!!

27. iF YES, WHAT DiD YOU DO ABOUT iT? iF NO,
WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
--- I destroyed our friendship mwahahahaha!!!

28. iS FAME & MONEY THE MOST iMPORTANT THiNGS iN
YOUR LiFE?
--- mas gusto ko ung mga memories, money is just
a "thing"

29. DO YOU MAKE ANY MOVEMENTS OR SOUNDS WHEN
YOU`RE SLEEPiNG?
--- sabi nila wala naman daw...kun meron so what!

30. ARE YOU DiFFiCULT TO WAKE UP?
--- yup yup...pero pag "XA" un tmwag n nagicing..ahh ibang usapan na yan.

31. HOW OFTEN DO YOU SLEEP?
--- when theres a chance

32. ARE YOU CONVENiENT WiTH THAT?
--- yes, but too much sleep will make your
stomach big.

33. LAST, HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT YOU WERE PERFECT?
--- yuk! hell no!...imagine a perfect person(not god ok?) damn...hirap siguro xa ihanap ng gf/bf..kasi lahat d bagay sa knya

wut? hu says im fat?duh! i dont have a big butt@@

2005-02-16T20:38:00.000+08:00

i visited boink today..i arrived at about 4 somthin..one of her frens was so pale bak then super hungry..actually she lookd funny back then hahaha i bought her fishballs from d guy outside unfortn8ley we werent able to do the tusok tusok thing...the "fren came out and said "WOW FISHBALLS!!" i go "OO FISHBALLS" she was so funny..i told her that the fishball guy gave it for free coz she lookd so pale..she came to vendor and said thnk u..weird!! funny how peepol react when theyr hungry..

boink asked me if i wanted to go smewer cz she was hungry..1 of her frens suggestd this isawan in proj 4 suprisingly i said ok..=) the isaw was cheap it lookd clean also..i ate 4 isaw ng manok with 1 bulaklak..wit 1cup of rice once agen i felt like a pig..it was too greasy.. its not healthy but its delicious..i dont care about the grease and my getting too mch cholesterol..my oncern was i knew i was gettin fat..and boink kept on aying that i have a huge butt!!

i dont know if my butts too big or shes just making fun of me..neways next week m gna try to lose some pounds hopefully itl afeect my butt.. grrr!!! fin

2004-06-07T13:17:00.000+08:00

ok,you guys. i got this from charmaine's blog and she got this from deslite's..feel free to answer them. this is sort of like a before-the-new-schoolyear-starts request. use my comment box below (sings a song) so here goes...

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Do you have a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
7. Describe me in one word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything, what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When was the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to put this on your weblog and see what I say about you?

Arrestisi pensano

2004-05-26T12:18:00.000+08:00

stop think
aliya parcs

here we go again falling in love again
falling in love all over
we though we've seen the end
thought it was over then
but the feeling's back and we're starting over

hanging conversation, silly accusations
we never made it through cos me and you
we never had a chance... and now we're taking another

stop think wait a minute is it love that we really feel
we've been hurting bad we've been hurt before
don't you fall until we know for sure
stop think wait a minute is it love that we really feel
we've been there before we've been through that door
don't you fall until we know for sure

here we go again taking a chance again
finding ourselves together
falling in love again losing it all again
watching the world go by as we're starting over

playing the fool together playing the game too long
thought we were wising up but we're starting over
and i don't care if we're wrong...

stop think...wait a minute...is love
that we really feel...

Harumph 2

2004-05-26T00:25:00.000+08:00

Only God knows what in store for me.
I can only wish for peace,
peace of mind that will tell me your fine.
Piece of your love
that will show me that you’ll stay for me.

Darkness is what I feel when your around me,
emptiness is what I feel when your not.

Wish me luck?
I don’t need it.
Hold my hand like you were never been down before.

I never got the chance to show you
what my 3short words meant;
still you gave me another chance.

Your kindness was sometimes unacceptable.
Too much giving made us what we are today.
We were always giving and never got time for ourselves,
which led to our downfall.

You were my coat from the storm,
a blazing fire that warmth’s my heart when I'm in need.
Our flame soon changes to rage that was so deep.

I remember back when I was an imbecile in life.
Still I stood up and believe
that I had learned from my past depression
but my wounds got even deeper,
and now that we don’t have each other anymore,

I can summarize all the things
I leaned about love in 2words,
IT GROWS.

Looking at our old memories
I realized the meaning of true love,
it’s not about giving and taking
it’s not about the time and space we should have…

Love was all about you!!

******
i miss you....really..i do.. u know who you are... bleh =p

Harumph!

2004-05-26T00:04:00.000+08:00

Blue clouds are not forever,
windmills don’t spin for life,
nightmares are only good for a night.

I never asked for a perfect life,
all I ask is your faith,
faith that will tell me
everything is going to be alright.

would you stay here beside me?
will you recognize my face when you see me
at the corner of your room weeping?

Questions will always find its answers
but our regrets will stay forever.

life is colorful..
indeed the happiest moments of our lives
will be most dominant even in our darkest moments.

Now that I have gone to a better place,
please don’t go to my grave and weep.
I am the thousand winds that blow,
I am the waves that clears your mind.
A noble creature that will guide you to a better life,

So don’t ever go to my grave and weep
I am not there I never died,
I never said that I did.

Life is too short to live
but too much to enjoy.
My few moments of pain will be vanished
before another one strikes me.

Your love gives me life
that’s why I am the loneliest person in the world right now.

Never look back at me like you want to change your mind and stay,
it only adds the burden
that I have been keeping since I met you.

Free your soul of misery
for it can kill you without even knowing
the sense of life and love.

if ever the time comes for you to know me
please be discreet about thy noble creature.

Be silent, be still.
I am not an enemy
I’m just a stranger lost in this stupid game of life…

Choice...Life...LOVE...HORSESHIT!!

2004-05-21T10:15:00.001+08:00

ever thought of falling for someone?

then you become scared that things
might not work out the way you wanted it to be?
they say love is all about taking risks
and life was all about making choices...

what if we choose not to choose any choice?
do you get it?
does it mean we made a bad choice of not choosin?
or worse...
does it mean were not living our lives to the fullest

but then again not choosing is a choice right?

i believe that love is a choice and not a chance
we choose who to love...no one cud force us to love somone

i chose to fall in love with someone RECENTLY...
upto now im still afraid of making a choice...
why?

sometimes "YOU PEOPLE" tend to force us
to tell how we feel
and what we want to say...

HELLO!!!
cant you read between the lines??
isnt it obvious?

then in the end...because of our Vulnerability
to the so-called love thing

we end up talking...
spilling it all out..
in the end what??
they'l probably say
"i never thought of it that way"

oh cmon! thats b*llshit
i mean really...you force us to talk
ask these questions
when the answers are so obvious...

what do these people get out of it?
u find it amusing that sum1 likes/loves you?
is that like a trophy thing?...
wow thats ur thing eh?
at the expense of other peoples true feelings...

aaw thats pathetic

Life Goes on and on and on (part I)

2004-05-21T10:15:00.000+08:00

Seriously...
is it flunking school?
losing your phone?
getting urself bruised?
wounded?
...or is it losing someone?

there was a time that i was afriad of losing
someone i really cared about so much.
someone who changed my life
someone i thought i coudnt live without
someone i love...

it felt close to hell..
it really did, as i could remember
but i never fought for it...

why bother?
all that matters is you know what you are..
and all you are was in love with her...

why didnt i fought for her?...
simple factors..
i thought there was someone else she loved more...
someone from her past whom she cant forget..

all that went through my mind was..
sure..
i liked her, like she likes him
i need her, like she needs him
and i loved her, like she loves him...
same situation...right?
the only difference is she wasnt facing me...
her back was in front of me...
which is why is she couldnt see me...
or maybe thats why she didnt want to look at my side..

Letting go was never really a problem...
coz inever really had her...
moving on was the hardest part of all...
ditch that art of letting go sonng for me...

i was used to a life with her by my side...
we were the closest friends back then..
suddenly THIS happened..
i had to wake up living a life without her...
i didnt know what to do..
no one will scream at me...
aaaw...whats my next move?...

to be continued...

Things Just Got even Worse

2004-05-20T17:56:00.000+08:00

Ever had the feeling that ur being deprieved?
its lke u wanna go somewhere but something or
someone is holding you back? i have...3mins ago

what sucks is usually you get split into 2...
one side is begging for answers..on the other
ur so fucking pissed coz ur afraid of the
freaking truth behind it...

what if u never get to the bottom of it? wud u feel bad?
what if the truth isnt wut u wanted or worse its not what you expected?
aaaw now thats a whole lotta shit that u gotta get thru...ryt?

first minute..."haha its nothing (body gets numb)
first hour... "oh shit what did just happened?" (tears start to fall)
first week... "i'm gonna be ok...everythings fine"
(u start give this stupid plastic smile)
first month... "its not ok" shit i miss her...

2months after..."aaah i miss her!!!"
next 3months... "i'm doing good i think"

suddenly someone came...

now...whats ur next move?? ur too damn chickenshit to do something right?
yeah thats what i thought..ur a BIG CHICKEN SHIT!!and now ur too afraid to be happy fr yourslef...

aaaw now isnt that sweet...
as i it goes...

whats the point of being in love?
if i had to be in love all alone?
whats the point?
there's a point...thats why we call it unconditional love right...

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I went to school a while ago to pay mt tuition fee and had my id pic taken...there was this weird girl who was so desperate of making me laugh..too bad i had the last laugh hahaha i told the lady that she was this crazy girl who doesnt have any friends..hahaha sorry marga... peace!

Yikee = a whole lotta BLL SHT Things got even worse

2004-05-19T16:43:00.001+08:00

Yikee Yi-ki' -(noun) expression used by other people to aggravate
or put another person in the spot, usually said for personal gain
to make speaker feel better at the expense of the other person,
word that destroys friendship between two people usually male and female,

This yikeee word is really bad for the health!! trust me..